I Don't Mind The Sun Sometimes, The Images It Shows
From 10:00am to 11:00am, I was staring at my ceiling, having a very
silent, very still panic attack, feeling completely incapable of
accomplishing anything in life, from getting out of bed, to writing a
play, to loving a human being, to being a friend, to sustaining the
life of my body for a reasonable period of time. Then, at 11:01am, I
decided to make root vegetable stew.
And everything changed.
And I felt COMPLETELY ON TOP OF MY GAME. I ran down my loft bed ladder. I walked into the living room where Katherine was waking up. "Katherine," I said, "I feel COMPLETELY ON TOP OF MY GAME."
We went to the grocery store. I put all the empty bottles into recycling bags. I'm cleaning my floors now. With the broom and the special spray-swifter. Then I'm going to do the dishes. Then I'm going to clean the vegetables, cut them, and put them in a pot. I'm going to make lunches for the whole week. I'm going to make some lists. I'm going to finish things.
Last night, this morning, at 4:40am on Hooper and South 2nd, I threw my arms around Ardi's shoulders and said, "One day we will write a book together, and it will be called, 'The Parties We Had & The Parties We Didn't Have.'"
I'm 26 years old, and the enemy is expectation. The ally is impulse. Deb Margolin always taught me that desire was the only guide to make good art. I finally, finally, finally, finally, finally, finally believe her.
Love
Dan
And everything changed.
And I felt COMPLETELY ON TOP OF MY GAME. I ran down my loft bed ladder. I walked into the living room where Katherine was waking up. "Katherine," I said, "I feel COMPLETELY ON TOP OF MY GAME."
We went to the grocery store. I put all the empty bottles into recycling bags. I'm cleaning my floors now. With the broom and the special spray-swifter. Then I'm going to do the dishes. Then I'm going to clean the vegetables, cut them, and put them in a pot. I'm going to make lunches for the whole week. I'm going to make some lists. I'm going to finish things.
Last night, this morning, at 4:40am on Hooper and South 2nd, I threw my arms around Ardi's shoulders and said, "One day we will write a book together, and it will be called, 'The Parties We Had & The Parties We Didn't Have.'"
I'm 26 years old, and the enemy is expectation. The ally is impulse. Deb Margolin always taught me that desire was the only guide to make good art. I finally, finally, finally, finally, finally, finally believe her.
Love
Dan
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Dan Fishback is a sponsored project of Fractured Atlas, a non-profit arts service organization. Contributions in behalf of Dan Fishback may be made payable to Fractured Atlas and are tax-deductible to the extent permitted by law.
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